MONOLOGUE VIDEO

Ever since I was a little girl
I longed for you to find me
When you came along that was it
A lion, a gazelle, trying to make it fit


You lightened up my life like a supernova
and covered my black hole sun
I couldn’t resist
though I knew I should have run  

Kept ignoring the sign
When you said ‘You’re mine‘
I forgot to breathe 
and you got underneath 

I let you into my world 
you pushed everyone out
Moaning ‘Honey,
That’s what love is about‘

I saw all those pictures of the movie 
Starring our life
A technicolor dream of what we could be
With shades of black when words cut like a knife

You and me
We were meant to be
but the puzzle won`t fit
So we started to bang on it

We keep fighting about little things that do not count
it’s the little things that shape or break me
I make myself small, pretend you`re right
I bend so you can love me

Remember when we held our first child
When you kissed me it felt like a thorn
Whatever we were, it was sealed then
This was the point of no return

You say you love me so much that it hurts
And that’s the reason why you hurt me 
You know how to kill with words 
I wish you`d love me less so I’d be free

These days and nights are exhausting
Covering the bruises with clothes
We really are great actors
And nobody knows

We’ve been at this point so many times 
Our love’s a unicorn 
You’re begging me to give it another try
Cause unicorns won’t die

There was a time when I wondered whether I should leave
whether I would feel scared or happy
When I thought the only dreamt worth living
was to be me

But I’ll hold on to this whatever it costs
Without you I’ll face darkness
You’re the drug that I need the most
And I surrender to my madness 

My sweet oxygen
You let me drown again
Let me suffocate 
till I find my escape 

I’m locked in your castle of gold
The corners are covered with mold
Cause beauty lies in grey
And I’m the one who did not get away

I settle in your spiderweb 
Make it feel like home 
Live in a picture perfect
A trap that feels so warm

You’re my sculptor, I’m your stone 
You form me and you break me
I surrender to fill your hole
Until I’ll be who you want me to be

… THe ONLY DREAM WORTH LIVING IS TO BE YOURSELF …